Full Bar Gummies Commercial I Shot 2012:

I am in this Jim Norton Epix Commercial:

‘Father’s Day’: Film Explores Black Girls Growing Up in Fatherless Homes

Madamenoire.com thought it interesting to do an article on myself and partner Ashley Shante' on our film Father's Day?, about a young girl's journey to confront her issues of abandonment and rejection. Correy, played by writer, c0-producer, Ashley Shante' is forced to confront the "elephant in the room", her absent father, after she is given an assignment from her professor (played by myself, also co-producer).

Read the article here:

http://madamenoire.com/tag/squeaky-moore/

FILM DIRECTOR SQUEAKY MOORE CHATS WITH MASS APPEAL NEWS. By Wayne E. Hodges

I am very grateful for Mass Appeals' Wayne Hodges for taking the time out to interview me about my career successes! Also I would like to personally thank Shawn Edwards (channel 4 news and Wayne Hodges), for having our film promo, for upcoming film Father's Day? in their Kansas City Urban Film Festival!

You can read my exclusive interview here:

http://www.massappealnews.com/2011/09/12/squeaky-moores-qa/

Wanting vs. Believing

I waged a war with self on the difference between wanting and believing. I realized that I've been wanting with all of my soul to become a renown actress, recognized by millions for my great skill and naturalism. What I realized however, was although I wanted to become renown, that wanting was miles away from believing that I could actually become it. In fact, as I begin to think it through, I realized just how much doubt was there: how much my belief system didn't match up to my wants. In my soul, I didn't believe that I could carry a movie from the beginning to the end; a TV series. I remember once sitting in an acting class and the subject came up how producers are looking at you and thinking, Is this the face that millions would want to watch night after night in their living room? I cringe when I think back to that class. On that day, I did not believe that my face was interesting enough to watch. I didn't think that I could have millions of fans, and get fan mail. When I closed my eyes, I couldn't visualize the call that I would get from my agent saying, "Squeaky, I got good news...".

What pains me even more is that I truly had the talent, yet lacked the confidence-and I wouldn't find out that my wants and beliefs differed greatly until years later. So I waisted years asking myself "why?" Why didn't I book the role? Why can I book smaller roles and not major ones? Why am I not consistently booking? Why should I go with a major agent and get loss in the shuffle? (This was such a foolish thing) Why not search for a boutique agent?

My answers to these questions never came close to the truth. For me, it was my hair- "That's right, maybe they want longer." Then it was my teeth- "Picture guy, when you are retouching, can you take out my gap...just a little", "I have picked up weight", "I'm not what they consider "beautiful" so I won't submit for that role"....and all these things that would flow through my mind. It all came down to one thing. I was a nut! I didn't believe in myself, my talent, my body, my smile, or my hair. How in the world could I walk into an audition and feel conviction about the role I was reading for. Sure, some roles were an exact fit for me, the lines rolled trippingly off my tongue as if I created the words myself. Those jobs, I couldn't help but book-luck some would call it- and with that came a bit more confidence of course. But, I was still so far from believing in self that I could play a leading role, be nominated for an Oscar and win! It was ludicrous really with the talent I possess.

I was even further away from receiving what I wanted because I never allowed myself to relish in the small successes of booking small roles, because "it wasn't where I wanted to be ultimately." I remember when I first booked a role on "Law and Order: CI", and I can recall the moment of heat surging inside of me when my agent call to tell me I booked the job. I was so excited! Soon as I made my first call, the person asked me, "How many lines do you have," or maybe it was, "Do you have a big part?"....I immediately sank-my spirit and my joy plummeted. I had only booked a U5 (under 5 lines). So my happiness for the success I had lasted a total of 60 minutes....maybe.

The truth of the matter is, I should still be happy for that one role! It was the role that made me eligible for SAG. It was the role that went on IMDB. It was a role that attracted agents, managers, and casting director's attention, it is the one role that MANY people think (thanks to my fans), "Squeaky is doing it!", because they are major fans of L&O:CI. I should still be happy because to date, I am still getting checks for this U5 role. It was the role that when I first learned I had book the job I was elated about, because I was going to be on TV. Which was my goal in life anyway!

I learned sometime along the way, that we have to celebrate every small success. How else will we appreciate the larger ones. Let's face it, no matter how big the jobs are that we book, if we are ambitious, we will always be looking for more, bigger and better opportunities.

I worked on changing my thoughts about myself. To change my beliefs, I learned to visualize myself on TV and in film. I learned to accept myself through the eyes of other people who would rant and rave about my work, since I hadn't thought enough of my skill to believe I could actually become what I wanted. I made affirmations that I would say daily about myself and my wants that I wanted to change into beliefs, and into realities. I would say them right before I went into an audition too. I would tell myself aloud 3 things that I love about myself right before walking in. I begin to say, "I deserve this". I also thought on the people who were playing the leading roles that I wanted to play. Then I thought on people who were quirky, and odd and overweight, people who had bad hair and weird eyes. And stuff like that, yet they booked the lead role in films and on Television.

So I share with you some of my affirmations:

I deserve this role.
I am beautiful and perfectly perfect.
I deserve to have have millions of fans.
I deserve to have millions of fan mail.
I can carry a film from the beginning to the end and have viewers in awe of my work.
I can play roles with depth.
People talk about my work and how it is done in excellence.
Producers love me. Directors love me. Casting Directors love me.
I'm the next best thing!
I can win an Oscar.
I am a star.
I am red carper worthy!
Greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
I am Victorious!
I win!

Interview with Dr. Boyce Watkins - On upcoming film, "Father's Day"

I was so honored to have Dr. Boyce interview me on upcoming film, "Father's Day". Check it out below.

http://boycewatkins.wordpress.com/2011/05/02/meet-the-ladies-who-made-fatherless-black-homes-into-a-viral-internet-topic/

First Refusal as it relates to commercial auditions-Blog by Ed Wagenseller

So, I went on a commercial audition yesterday that went really well! Actually, no more than 2 hours later, I got a call from someone who put me on a "first-refusal"! I hate first refusals! Every-time I get one I have to go back and get an understanding of the meaning again! lol. So, I go to research what it means exactly, all over again and come across a blog by this guy Ed who made the best sense of it ever!!!! So ofcourse I want to share....oh btw. I have already put this commercial shoot dates on my calendar and am claiming to God that I book it! NOW! so I will let you know soon. Just check my "extra, extra, read all about it", section.

Here you go: Right of first refusal doesn’t mean squat, but at least I was in the race.

Posted on March 6, 2011 by Ed Wagenseller After a relatively quiet six months in the auditioning world things have suddenly picked up. It started with an audition for a national commercial for GreenSmart Lawn Care for which I was called back on and almost booked (more on that later), a reading for Teen Spirit a TV series being done for ABC Family, Army Wives on Lifetime, and an industrial read for Qwest which is some kind of computer security thingy. What does all of this mean? Nothing. The GreenSmart Audition was in Charlotte, NC. For those of you just joining this blog or are not familiar with NC geography, I live in Wilmington, NC and Charlotte is a three and a half to four hour drive (one way) depending on traffic. Yep that is 8 hours round trip, 16 hours total including call back and add a another 8 if you book it. One day of my life for the opportunity to land a job. That’s America’s worst commute hands down. But anytime there is a national spot, even one for cable as this one, I make a point of going. I always check to see if there is a callback. This one had no callback listed. Of course when I arrive I find there will be a callback for which I am sure I will be asked to come back to Charlotte for next week. I am called back, I do go back and I am offered right of first refusal. So what does this mean? In my 11 years of doing commercial work anytime I was offered right of first refusal I always got the booking up until last year when Crestor reneged on their offer and chose a male model for the spot. I was devastated. That was going to be a cash cow. So this time when I’m offered first refusal, I’m not counting any chickens, but I am still confident that things will go my way. Surely it couldn’t happen two times in a row! You know how this one ends. In my frustration I call the world’s greatest agent to vent. “Hey Rusty, this is Ed”

“Hey buddy”

“What the hell is going on?”

“Hell if I knew that I wouldn’t be a casting agent.”

“It just doesn’t make sense, why do they offer me first refusal if they are going to cast someone else?”

“Yeah its frustrating, but its out of our control and we are all in the same boat.”

“ This is the second time in a row this has happened.”

“Well this happens more often than not.”

“That doesn’t make any sense.”

“This business doesn’t make much sense.”

“I just don’t understand why they tell me to clear my schedule just so they can cast someone else.”

“Happens all the time.”

“Did they book one of your talent on the job?”

“Yep, sure did.” “Did they put him on first refusal too.”

“Of course” (pause) “Huh?” “Oh yeah I had four guys on first refusal.”

“That’s crazy. You mean they offer first refusal to more than one person?”

“Oh yeah.”

“But every time I’ve been offered first refusal I’ve booked the gig with the exception of Crestor and now this one.”

“Sounds to me like you’re spoiled. Like I said, it is the rule more than the exception that folks put on first refusal don’t get the job. You’ve just been lucky.”

“So they put multiple “dads” on hold and then let the client (aka company) choose? Wow, I have been lucky.”

“Oh yeah, man. They put four on first refusal within one hour after the callback.”

“Well damn. (pause) That makes me feel a little better. Hell I thought that I was the only one and that for whatever reason they didn’t like me and went back through the tape and chose someone else. I didn’t know it was, in essence, a third call back.”

“Oh yeah, like I said more often than not folks put on first refusal don’t get the offer.”

“Wow. 11 years of doing commercials and I’m just getting a grasp on this.”

“Yeah. That’s just how it works, all we can do is be battling on the last lap”. Rusty is a big fan of NASCAR.

“Alright, Rusty. Thanks for your time and I appreciate the clarification.”

“You got it buddy.”

Click. So the moral of this story is simple. You don’t have the job until you are on set shooting the damn thing. The up side is I’m getting ready to board a plane for Las Vegas to work on some Industrial video projects for RE/MAX International with Corporatainment Productions and Hank and Jed Moving Pictures. Should be a blast, plus I’ve never been to Vegas. That’s all for now. Check in soon. Peace, Ed